Yesterday, I officially withdrew from SCAD. I left in good standing, so I can come back any time within the grace period without having to reapply. Just sign up for class like nothing happened. I'm hoping I can come back for the Spring quarter. I'm getting treatment in Savannah, so I won't be moving back to TN.

I withdrew for medical reasons. Last year I was in a car accident that left the left side of my body numb. Most of the numbness went away on its own, but my left arm never recovered. When my arm is not numb, it's intolerably painful. I am left handed. Obviously, this makes being in art school a damn near impossible situation. (For the record, if you suggest I give my right hand a try as some have, you are a complete moron.)

Anyway. That's what's up.

+ had a delicious dinner with friends
- made a huge decision about my future, which I will not be announcing until it actually goes through (if it can)
- got my eyelid cut up by a kitten getting stuck on my face

... + at least I didn't lose an eye?

There, balanced enough.

Doing okay for a while there. Not great, obviously, but I set up what I needed to get help and I was hopeful and coping.

But today? Today I am the biggest goddamn asshole in the world. Even if I swear up and down and on the Bible that I am doing the best I can, which I honestly am and that is somehow more pathetic than just being a lazy fuckwit, I would be surprised if anyone believed me. Because it really does look like I'm a lazy fuckwit.

But for God's sake it has been almost a full year since I could feel my left arm! If I was just making excuses, clearly I would have a new one by now.

Disabling comments because I don't want to talk or hear about it, so don't cheat and comment on a different entry.

DISNEY TO ACQUIRE MARVEL ENTERTAINMENT

Um!

Back on the internet for only a couple hours, and I'm already sick of it. Oh just go away, internet.

OOPS

STILL ALIVE

HI, Y'ALL

I know that some people are stressed out right now. But I'm here to tell you it's okay. Everything will be okay now. The kittens had nice big poops. You can rest easy.

Two kittens showed up in the backyard, half-drowned after a huuuuge storm yesterday. Got them dried off and warmed up. One of them can drink formula from a small dish and the other will only lick it off my finger. Both think that a litter box is for naptime. The shelter can't take them for a week or so. Uhh... I guess I have kittens now.

I'm calling them both Little Shit.

AS I WAS SELECTING AN ICON, THEIR MOTHER CAME BACK LOOKING FOR THEM. RAN OFF AS SOON AS SHE SAW ME AT THE WINDOW. GOD DAMN!

I thought when the doctor said "I'm going to give you something for pain" that it meant "I'm going to give you something to make pain go away." Apparently it meant "I'm going to give you something that will make you hurt all the time, forever."

My body is so mad at me.

Sara Benincasa, who most of you probably know from her Sarah Palin vlogs, is bringing her comedy show Agorafabulous! to South Carolina! Here are clips from the show. I am super excited and definitely going to try and make it.

July 10th, 2009
10:00 PM
AGORAFABULOUS! in CHARLESTON, SC
Theatre 99, 280 Meeting Street
Charleston, South Carolina
Cost: $10

Anybody else interested?

I need people familiar with the following fandoms:

Reborn!
D.Gray-Man
Bleach
Lupin III (... so, uh. hamburger)
Eyeshield 21 (I am not even remotely caught up with this so please try not to spoil it)
what else is popular i don't even know

I'm doing things for Otakon, and I need to know what people will want to see/buy. If there's something not on this list that you think should be, I'll take that too.

I don't like that my LJ has become so horrible and negative. I try not to update with only bad things, but then I ... don't post. SO here is a list.

- Having trouble sleeping, and can't keep more than one meal a day down. Obviously, this does not make anything easier to deal with.
- Car needed repairs. $322 for two hoses. Would not have needed these repairs if the wrong hoses hadn't been installed the last time the car was worked on.
- I'm in physical therapy for my left arm. It has been numb since October and the only place I can get to treat me for it is Memorial. I can not begin to explain how much I hate and distrust Memorial and everyone associated with it.
- No luck getting a job. Options very limited. Can't do a lot things because my arm is fucking numb.
- I can't even mow the goddamn yard.
- Bank card has stopped working, for no apparent reason. Spite, maybe?
- Comcast is trying to bill me twice for one month.
- Might not be able to get to Otakon after all, which was about the only thing I had to look forward to until September. This could still work out, with some fancy juggling, but with my luck I think you will understand if I am not entirely optimistic.
- Oh my God, why are so many people dying?
- General terrible feelings. Terrible, terrible feelings.

When is something going to go right for a change?

Car needs repairs. It got fucked up. Supposedly it will be fixed sometime tomorrow, but I doubt it'll be in time for my appointment. I went ahead and canceled it, but I think my physical therapist will see this as a sign that I hate him a lot forever. He's a sensitive lad.

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

I would like to not have a birthday next year, please.

Coughing fit while eating a cupcake. You know how sometimes in middle school you'd see a kid laugh so hard at lunch that milk came out his nose? It is like that. Only with cake. Cake soaked in a tart lemon glaze. I'm going to go ahead and declare this sensation distinctly unpleasant.

Also watched as Tsuncat realized he is too much of a fatass to fit on my skinny windowsill. He was just hanging by his front paws, staring up at his sister with the most pathetic expression. Dere was a smug skinny bitch in return.

It is my birthday.

I made cupcakes (from a box mix, which automatically makes them inferior in every way) with lemon glaze (from scratch, which makes it delicious), and I have vodka. In my vodka are two ice cubes: one shaped like the Titanic and one shaped like an iceberg.

No, I do not want to talk about it. No, I do not want snuggles or sympathy. Just get me some goddamn adorable pictures and totally awesome links STAT. This is an order from your captain.

It is beautiful outside right now. Absolutely gorgeous – bright and sunny, and a nice temperature. Unfortunately, I have a lot to do for finals and the move, and none of it can be done outside. Nooooo! I just want to be in the sunlight, just for a little bit! Is this too much to ask?!

❶ Choose an episode of anime or television series you have on your computer. Make sure you're certain you want that one, you cannot change or mind once you skips this step. DO NOT TELL YOUR FLIST WHAT YOU CHOSE.
❷ Make note of how long the episode is here -> 22:20
❸ Ask your flist to choose a time between 00:00 and whatever the length of your episode is. Be specific, (ie: 19:11, 21:09, 02:42)
❹ Make them an icon using THAT FRAME ONLY no matter what it is. And remember, you can only use that ONE episode you chose previous, even if the person posting isn't familiar with it.

Go ahead and ask for more than one, if you want. MORE SURPRISES.